Revenge of the Synapse

Thursday morning brought forth one of the more peculiar dreams I've had in awhile. If it weren't blanketed in such an initial layer of nerd, I'd almost call it beautiful, if not a bit morbid and sad.

It goes:

I'm looking at an amusement part, set in the first "map" of the original Roller Coaster Tycoon, if not more expansive than what it is in the actual game. My view is omniscient, like I were actually playing said actual game. It is a thriving park, crammed full of intricate coasters, and merry little virtual people. Music is playing, laughter is heard.

Then, quite suddenly, the part is empty and silent. For some reason or another (initial blanket of nerd, remember), I realize that I haven't hired any mechanics, so I do. He heads to a particular wooden coaster, repairs it, and disappears.

Suddenly, I'm standing (looking at myself in third person, but I'm only seven or eight years old) in a very real looking park, at dusk. It looks like it has been abandoned for decades. Rust, cracked pavement, and rotting wood loom over the expanse. A cold wind picks up. It feels obvious that everyone has died, and I'm the only one left.

The view switches to first, and eerily, a coaster car rolls up to the dilapidated station of the "real" coaster that the mechanic fixed. I get in, filled with a sense of purpose. Suddenly, the park is alive again, and full of laughing people. I know it isn't real, and I feel the car move. A sad voice (mine?) begins to say, "And all alone, she took one last ride, and she would be with them again."

As the last of it utters, the view flashes back to the dead park, where the coaster is reaching it's highest point, where upon the track abruptly ends. The car speeds up, and I smile as I feel the car launch into the open air.

Then I wake up.

Three things struck me about this:

1.) I almost never dream in first person.

2.) Likewise for being a little girl again.

3.) First dream I've ever died in.

It wasn't a nightmare, really, but it was fucking creepy. Psychoanalysts, have at it.